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12th june 2010
it seems to the writer that he's flogging a dead horse
because no one is doing what is being asked
or
doing what you think is the right thing to do is leading to the following traits becoming part of your being...
a belief that you know better than the lover
(the start of the ultimate anti-authoritarian attitude)
becoming practised in the ways of deceit
a liar by omitting of the truth
acquiring a feel for the group/cult/clique mentality
seeing eye to eye with the decision to send soldiers off to kill and be killed
justifying allowing infants and birthing mothers to suffer
in other words... any price is worth paying rather than acknowledging that god exists
and if you're harbouring feelings of resentment then divest yourself of such feelings immediately
those feelings lead to homicidal tendencies
it is these, and other considerations, that has stopped the writer from being himself
that has prevented the writer from "spreading it about" and that he will not be interacting further with generation 2000 without a specific instruction from the lover
and on that point...
the writer foolishly believed that it was just a matter of time before a woman whose feel for babies would compel her to come forward and say the magic words... "how can i help"
the last of the pages that were handed out (2005) was the final attempt to get women to demonstrate that they had a love that the writer could respond to
it just wasn't there
the writer has resigned himself to the understanding that he is destined never to have a love relationship at this point of time of any future undulation
women who talk of their love of children but didn't act when the opportunity was there
that men would let the infants suffer was a telling aspect to their character
that women would let that happen made the writer re-evaluate women completely
it's difficult to express the feelings that accompany the realization that it is a world where men don't have the intelligence to do what the wiriter asks
(he knows the answer to the greatest mystery of all, he can't possibly know anything else worth knowing)
and a world of women without love
and if that wasn't bad enough...
the one person in your history you should have bent over backwards to take care of was allowed to become disabled
what you do to the writer is a mere hint of what you would do or allowed to be done to the lover
when help was needed you made sure the writer didn't get it
you all kept your distance when the writer needed you
the writer is going to make sure that the distance you put between us remains in place
the form of insanity that brings these circumstances into reality has got to be dealt with and sooner rather than later
with the right approach it can be reduced to dismissable levels within 1500 years
in **** years the writer joins up with his counterpart in the dinosaur class and his isolation will be over