14th december 2009 the real tragedy in all of this is not the suffering that devolving beings experience on the way out of existence nor is it the suffering of the innocents nor is it the suffering the lover had, and has, to experience as a result of beings choosing not to exist the real tragedy is the fact that those beings cannot be replaced for all eternity there will always be a gap in the function of 1 x 1 where those beings should have been the heavenly state wont be as rich as it could have been each undulation be as long as it could have been the possibility of large quantities of an acceptably appealing existence for devolving beings has just past the only consolation is that the worst of the realities that can come from the desire not to exist are in the past whether evolving or devolving there's no way it can be looked at without realizing it is a complete tragedy

10th october 2012 for those of you who wondered what it was that could condemn a person to eternal suffering... now you know a being who knows what the consequences of murder are is told what the consequences will be to both the murdered person and the person who commits the murder and in the light of the knowledge of the consequences of their actions goes ahead and does it anyway even after committing murder the murderer's are given the chance of avoiding damnation through repentance but even then, with eternal damnation staring them in the face, go ahead and murder again in the millennia and milliards ahead as we move further on into lov-lee and the magnificence of the heavenly state starts to reveal itself the real loss to those who chose non existence will become known to those who are able to compare the difference between the two extremes of reality the innocents who suffered at the hands of the devolving will not regret their suffering because the understanding will exist that every conceivable attempt in every conceivable set of circumstances was made to bring them to their senses the devolving are not to be hated but pitied don't, however, feel sorry for them THEY CHOSE IT

10th october 2012 for diplomatic reasons this entry was withheld until after the visit there's no reason to hold it back any longer indeed, more harm may have been done by not making it available earlier at least two people close to the writer were presented with the rationale below and were persuaded it was right two people whose destiny was changed because of it... ...there is a reason or reasons or a rationale, coming out of the russian camp, that purports that it is futile to hope that it is anything other than a doom and gloom future the actual reason or reasons or rationale isn't known but it is suspected that... for ordinary people the idea that extraterrestrials exist is a non starter that they exist and are in league with governments is just too weird to be considered nonetheless the point has got to be made in an attempt to stop people, even if it's only one person, from being sucked into this skewered view of life see also... conspiracy: sensible people who know what's going on there was only one person the narrator didn't speak to Why? because he was/is a fully-fledged oligarch

10th october 2012 NOTES both the 1st party and the 2nd party knew i would make my entrance in 1986 you'll notice the 3rd party were not considered as being important enough to be privvy to the information the grays first made contact with russia in 1942 (in the middle of world war two) the grays are themselves devolving beings... the blind leading the blind