14th december 2009
the real tragedy in all of this is not the suffering that devolving beings experience on the way out of existence
nor is it the suffering that innocents undergo as a result of beings choosing non existence
nor is it the suffering the lover had, and has, to experience as a result of beings choosing not to exist
the real tragedy is the fact that those beings cannot be replaced
for all eternity there will always be a gap in the function of 1 x 1 where those beings should have been
the heavenly state wont be as rich as it could have been
nor will each undulation be as long as it could have been
the possibility of large quantities of an acceptably appealing existence for devolving beings has just past
the only consolation is that the worst of the realities that can come from the desire not to exist are in the past
whether evolving or devolving there's no way it can be looked at without realizing it is a complete tragedy
next entry 4th january (perihelion)